2009!!!!!!!!!

last year i want to do a blog of my own pics ideas, but never did the found HSMS. while i don't want to neglect that i want to take my own pics so i have decided each week i will try to take pics around the themes below. don't have time to think of 365 pics myself and i hope i haven't knicked ideas of people, i've just put a random name next to each week. if anyone wants to join me please feel free. these words arn't set in stone and may change.

1/5 Fun

1/12 RED 1/19 Light 1/ 26 i, Myself or me 2/2 Chain 2/9 Sweet 2/16 Sky (take a picture of the sky , no fancy work just point n shoot!) 2/23 you who only me 3/2 Paper 3/9 Pen 3/16 mirror mirror on the wall 3/23 Date 3/30 script 4/6 ABC 4/13 you & Me 4/20 123 4/27 candle 5/4 Celebration 5/11 Pink 5/18 Feminine 5/25 me 6/1 Feline 6/8 Moveable 6/15 static 6/22 leaf 6/29 drawer 7/6 purple 7/13 Black and white 7/20 funky 7/27 them 8/3 show me the money 8/10 keep on moving 8/17 Dark 8/24 you again 8/31 Ink 9/7 Time 9/14 fave place in all the world 9/21 home 9/28 it 10/5 jewel 10/12 deep 10/19 shallow 10/26 music 11/2 action 11/9 me in action 11/16 taste 11/23 cycle 11/30 rain/rainbow 12/7 drop 12/14 decorate 12/21 Tree 12/28 fave pics of the year

PhotoHunt 116: Bright

Bright Pink Flowers ... taken in Lagos Portugal June 2006

pppppppppfffffffttttttttttt its how i feel!!! ------ Photo Hunt Answer = Manchester city centre!!!!! UK

Why is everything about love, romance, or heartbreak.

i can't seem to get away from romantic couples, pregnet women or bouncing babies.... and it doing my head in. i don't think i'll ever have that or want it well i'd like the romance just not the babies and pregnancy, but who knows.

The weather is awful its more like november than june. i'm propt up in bed "watching" bewitched but i can't actually see the Tv as i have the laptop on my knees... the weather is rainy and its really windy and looks horrid!!!

i've decided i need to try and get my like in order. i need to save up sell some of my crap tidy up. i own far to much junk. i've stuck a couple of bits on amazon but doubt it'll sell!!!

i need to re-box some of my DS games and flog them!!! I feel so awful, i'm getting another cold. I'm sad single 27 living at home, miserable, skint.

All my friends are growing up, getting engaged buying houses, moving in together, having babies wanting more babies, growing up in general!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i'm stood still. my life hasn't altered really in 7 years. ok i'm better qualified but essesntially still doing the same job at the same company, i haven't put my qualificatiosn to any sort of use. i'm so lonely its un true.... and i doubt i'll ever meet mr right, or mr wrong or mr u'll do or mr anyone!!!! lets face it who'd have me!!!!

PhotoHunt 115: Water

Photo Hunter 115: Water

10 points if you can tell me where the picture was taken!?

Film Meme :)

Film Meme stolen from Journals of a Rock Angel aka Hannah!!! .

1. One movie that made you laugh: Countless Movies make me laugh one that makes my sides hurt laughing is The South park Movie!!!

2. One movie that made you cry: Haha which film didn't i cry at more like!!!!... P.S I love you made me cry lots!!!

3. One movie you loved when you were a child: State Fair!!!!!

4. One movie you’ve seen more than once: Most of my films i watch a lot!!! the film i've seen the most is probabally meet me in st. louis

5. One movie you loved, but were embarrassed to admit it: The Butchers Wife

6. One movie you hated: Love in a time of Cholera

7. One movie that scared you:i'm a scardy cat i even get scared at Disney films!!!

8. One movie that bored you: anything with Ashton Kutcher

9. One movie that made you happy: On the Town

10. One movie that made you miserable: Perfume the story of a murderer!!!

11. One movie you weren’t brave enough to see: all Horror films!

12. One movie character you’ve fallen in love with: Aladin

13. The last movie you saw: At the Cinema SATC

14. The next movie you hope to see: That new one with Mark Whalberg but think it might scare me!!!

I Can't Sleep- and i've watched everything i've taped

So i'm back to blogging shite!!!

Tonight i'm gonna talk about what TV programmes i'm watching at the moment, bare with me there are quite a few:

Big Brother 9 (UK) - I'm watching this on and off, i need it to be another few weeks in and a few less people, there are still 15 of them in there, this week i'm almost certainly guaranteed to get a person i don't like out without even voting!!! my two least fave people are up for nomination, Alex and Mario, so unless BB pulls a cruel twist of fate this time on Friday one less annoying person will be in there!!! I can not stand Alex, all that stuff tonight about the cross dressing party, although Mo is a Muslim by religion he has openly admitted to not practising it so i can under stand why alex got upset as she is a practising Muslim (who drink and smokes and has a child out of wedlock!) (think on alex before you open your big trap!) she should have respected thats what he wanted to do for his party and if she didn't want to play she should have said to him look mate i'm not gonna play tonight this isn't my thing i'm off to bed, the twist with BB "accidentally" pressing the wrong button was genius!!! but Alex can not let things lie, she need to go to the mini prison for a few hours!!! BUT i think i want Mario to go this week, my main reason was he was up last week and saved.... why o why u people who voted Steph out are fools (my opinion only!!) we've missed out on the summer romance of the year and she would have stood up to alex! back to Mario (ahem Sean!) if he stays this weeks his overly large head is gonna get bigger and bigger and he's gonna think the public lurve him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,
MARIO TO GO, MARIO TO GO,

I didn't expect BB to take up so much room,

The Big Bang Theory!!!! its ended and i can't wait for the next series please tell me there is going to be one!!! so fantastic story lines a budding romance and geeks!!!!

Reaper: i've only just discovered this and they are re-running it on channel 4, just watched 2 episode and its so far fetched its ace!!!!

Kyle XY: Another Bizzar story that i have been sucked into BB2 saturday afternoons!!!

Greek: another ABC programme i think i may have been ABC'd!!! BBC have some amazing shows recently and this has to be one of them, Cool sis in about her 3rd year? at uni and her little brother that she has errr well not mentioned before gets on as a honours science programme so funny!!!!

House oh House: one letter can sum up House MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!! haha Hugh Laurie is a genius, i have loved him for years!!!

Greys Anatomy: i've only started watching this from the 3rd series, still a bit clueless but addicted to it!!!

Gossip Girl: OMG i love this show i think it replaces the gap the OC left in my life!!! haha

Gavin and Stacy, i know its ended but theres gonna be a comic relief special and a christmas special!!!

Beauty and the Geek: new series started the other night liking the new twist can't wait for the next episode!!!!

Doctor Who: I am loving the Doctor and don't shoot me but i even like Catherine Tate!!! (shhhhhh don't tell people i admitted to that!!! i was almost crying when i found out she was taking over as the latest assistant , after she ruined the xmas special a couple of years ago, but shes less shouty and more human now!!!) and i love the fact that Bernard Cribbins is her granddad!!!!


OMG i watch way too much TV. thanks god for recordable freeview so i can skip the ad's!!!!

Am I a Bad person

OMG i found out that a very close friend is about to get engaged, i am happy for her but i feel left on the shelf! and i know i should just be happy for her and not turn it round on myself but sometimes i can't help it!!! she told me last weekend and it didn't feel real but i've seen the ring tonight!! (V.nice) (V.Expensive i've estimated £1,500 shhhhh!!!) ($3,000) he's going to propose on holiday sometime in the next fortnight!!!! he's a nice guy we've known him since school he's loved her since school they got together about a year ago, she loves him, its all wonderful so why not its natural to progress to the next level. this afternoon we were ripping stuff out of wedding mags me the happy enthusiastic friend, i've made her stick stuff in a book cos she has all these ripped out bits of paper and only today she couldn't remeber which side of the page she liked!!!!

At one point her OH called her down stairs and i had a little cry, i'm not unhappy for them, i think i have a thing called friend envy, but from an odd perspective, a lot of people who have been in a relationship with no sign of engagement get it (we have one of those in our group as well!!) i have it from the single girl POV. i can't remeber the last time i snogged a guy let alone had a relationship. i'm getting on not old (yet!) but time marches on and it made me feel so sad that i'm gonna be on this shelf, fat, ugly and lonely for the rest of my days. I get so shy and can't talk to guy's, i always think the worst, Ugly bird competition / fat bird competition, its 2am and I've not had a snog yet competition and if any lad that i don't know even says hello this giant steel wall zooms down and i run screaming for the hills!!! i'm sure i'd be the same even if i was thin and pretty.

I'm just so sick of it all all the time. i genuinely don't think i will ever find the one or even the one for now. the one for the time being, and when people say don't be daft there's someone for everyone it just makes me cry, (which i am doing now!)

it doesn't help that earlier today we watched SATC. i cried a lot and not just at the sad bits, part of me cried for myself, that i'll never have these relationship issues cos i'll never have a relationship (see i turned it back on to myself - i am selfish!!!) I turned it one me again i wonder if my friends would react like the SATC girls if stuff like that (won't reveal any spoilers!) what happened in the film ever happened to me, would my Samantha(yes i do have a friend exactly and i mean exactly like her!) do for me what the real Samantha does for Carrie. I don't even want a Mr Big, i'd be more than happy with a Steve.

i don't even know why i'm writing this all down.

best go gotta be up early we're taking the ring to be re-sized in the morning!!!!

Thanks for reading if you have done, think i needed to get it off my chest but not to my friend who's getting married i don't wanna detract from her excitement!